To Mr.Last & Ms.Final . . . .

It has been  along time since I’ve logged into my account. I guess this is the first post of the year. Critics-Today & Indian Traditional Music made me inactive for a while. With A R Rahman’s latest RAAVAN in the background I feel energetic enough to comment on few preoccupied thoughts & give a new beginning to my Diary.

It’s time to decelerate theoretical study and start practical stuff with a good momentum. The time has come, to wind up college days and join my dream company. Well, there’s a month more to go. Happy for all success I enjoyed and for the B.Tech degree in Chemical Engineering.

How much am I worried about leaving this institute? Well, my friends started pumping lots of final photographs, videos, literature into facebook and orkut. Every time I see this kind of stuff, I question myself about my view of these final days. Well, I am least bothered about leaving this institute or any other stuff here. I am trained to change my place every 3rd year of life. I had to change six schools to complete my 10+2. This is the longest period I ever lived in a single place. And, I don’t mind to change six more. The moment I write this, you would start sorting and omitting my name from rational beings.

What am I losing when I go back home without a collage or video of my pals and institute? How bad is my memory to lose all the picturesque shots I captured every moment?

Well, my social life in this campus is not great. I hardly interacted with a few classmates of mine. Hence, my stay here is more of repetition. Who wants to capture and recollect the things which you have repeatedly done for four years!

I never felt the last thing when I finished my internship or when I left my college or school. How is that someone can laugh when other are weeping? Well, let me see if something can really happen in farewell.

I think am going crazy about this final stuff. Please don’t refer me to a psychiatrist.

Flip the coin again!

Flip the Coin

Once a leader noticed the inability of his subordinate to take a decision which would turn his life. Leader knows the potential of the boy. Like any other person this guy is afraid of failure. A failure which can make his life adverse. Leader simply told him, ‘ If you cannot make a decision just flip the coin.’ Immediate question was ‘What if I go wrong?’. Leader suggested with a smile of confidence, ‘Flip the coin again!’.

This short story carries a big message which can be a good lesson for many of us. Indeed this can change ones life. Most of us fail to make a decision. We don’t want to move ahead from the point of making a decision. We are afraid of the adversities about to face. All the day we wanted to play a safe game. But, it is time to realize! It is important that you take a decision rather counting odds and making no decision for years. Things may go wrong. We may be into adversity. Sometimes  we may be fired. Still there is a possibility of adjustment which will let us rebound. An elderly person suggested, ‘ Focus more on what you can get done than on what can go wrong.‘

This business story resembles Robert Frosts famous poem ‘The Road Not Taken’. Frost, in the poem spends till the dusk at the point of decision making. Finally, realizes that he has to go ahead. He takes up the less trodden path and exhibits the quality of a leader who thinks different.

Recollecting the last stanza of the poem :

Robert Frost

‘I shall be telling this with a sigh

Some where ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference.’

Looking into the first stanza of the poem:

‘Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood

And looked down as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth’

Second and third lines of this stanza gives a clear cut idea of what I am on. I can not take both the roads and it is equally important that I should be one traveler.

At the age of twenty life is flexible. We have the potential. We can adjust even if it goes wrong. Then, why are you afraid of deciding a road for you?

Think! Think! Think!

I never practiced writing a diary. this is my first attempt of such kind. I started this out of realization that I’m losing many days or in fact millions of seconds from my memory. Probably I am materializing my memories. Because of my engineering background I may sound technical or sometimes statistical, nevertheless I would like to carry the importance of literature I’ve been learning. In this case I’ll be playing a safe game as my literature is not flawless.

Few years ago, I never felt the necessity or imagined to maintain a record of moments I spend. In fact my world was small, not many desires, never seen a failure, in an academic world, also the life I’ve lived is short. It was possible for me to remember most them. As I gain numbers, things are changing. Desire to establish identity, longing for love, seeing the tint of failure, increasing field, I find more and more to explore.

I write this for more reasons. I committed umpteen sins in my short life. I realize ! I repent! I warn myself not to commit it again. But I am afraid! I do not know how strong is my heart! Also, how long can I hold a promise? Daily I encounter a world where things go against my principles. In the beginning I kept my self away from glancing them. Afraid! Today, I can comfortably stare them. Of course, I don’t appreciate their deeds even today. In the course of life things are becoming more and more obvious. I may be a victim of irregularity. This shouldn’t sound philosophical rather I must say it is psychology, My Psychology.

At the age of 30 I shall see my self as a better person. This daily record is an exercise which should work for me. Previous day lessons are going to be today’s cleanser.

At last my aim is to understand better. I need a better definition of life, track the emotions, develop proper culture, live a social life, .. .. .. and give my best !

Hello!!!

Hi .. .

I am Raghav R. I am a  chemical engineering student.

Before I start blogging I’d like to introduce myself to blogger world. I’m a novice blogger. Never done personal blogging. Have knowledge of painting and designing. Not good at outdoor games. I enjoy playing Foos ball. I spend my time designing websites, using facebook applications. Interested in human psychology and philosophy.

Things I would like to see in my near future are better academic profile, better relations, love. Regarding love I’ve some reservations. I am in need of some one who can just wipe away all my frustrations with an honest smile. I simply need a girl who loves me.

I’ve come here to start a new journey. All along the journey I’m going to be simple. This is going to be a public diary. I can comfortably say it public because it will reflect my environment also. I am not here to write the essence of life which I’ve lived. That’s very small. I am just 20 years old. This is going to be a record of the life which I am about to live.

Like anyone I am also passionate about success and love. Righteousness and honesty are parts of the lyrics of my life hymn.

Let me start the journey . . .